First, I want to quickly acknowledge that I am a pretty awful blogger. It’s been years since I’ve had this blog and It’s been years since I blogged. I’m going to admit near defeat. Near. I have held onto this failing blog because I still want to do it! I’ve had emotional scars from just pushing through treatment (which lasted 3 years) not counting hormone suppressing treatment.
When blogging, you have to kinda mentally and emotionally go over details and you do it more than just a conversation would. You think about the basics first- why you did it, when it occurred, etc.; then, the details- the physical effects, which affect your family, your mental and physical state, etc. It’s hard to do that. It’s writing an essay about your hardest moments. If you’ve never done that, its hard to explain, but, well, it’s damn difficult. And, its important! It’s not for a grade, but it’s for the world to read. I surely don’t have a wide audience, I know…but I have an important audience. Women, men, children, parents, sisters, brothers, best friends, distant relatives, distant acquaintances, afraid people across the world, nurses, doctors, cna’s, a newspaper, another blogger, who knows! Each of you are here for a reason. A personal reason. You didn’t arrive here by accident. No one just finds a blog about IBC by scrolling through Apple News. Your here because you want more info. You want to feel less alone. You want hope. You came for a reason. An important one, that’s what I’m saying. Your important. I want to still write this blog because it’s important to me to share, even if its every few years. I would laugh because, wow….what a miserable blogger I am..ha! There is my laugh. I mean, i have to. I’m so disappointed in myself…but, well….here I am. I have to acknowledge this failure and try to move on from it.
Please just be aware how much this still means to me. I will try to blog more often and I have so many I started but just couldn’t finish. I will try to finish those with time. I’ll also update you on the next blog. It’s been awhile… lol.
I want you to know, my dear reader, that you can always email me. I will answer any questions I can. Inflammatorybreastcancerwarriorblog@gmail.com